Dispose of your love so far into the sea
throw your love as far behind the mountains
bury your love to the bottom of the earth
fly your love to disappear the opposite cloud
but a moment that love will emerge
true love can not be buried
true love can not be eliminated
true love will never die
I love you with true love
(wet my eyes, every time I remember you)
Butterflies have wings that are fragile
but God allowed its to fly with wings fragility
miraculously
my body is stronger than butterflies
God has given me more
but ....
sometimes
my heart is fragile as butterfly wings
if the fragility of it came
I wanted to destroy myself
but as the Lord keep the butterfly wings are fragile for not destroyed
God will also keep my heart not to be destroyed
God will make me fly farther and higher
God will make me stronger
even more than the wings of an eagle
I am waiting for you in the silent and deserted
in the silent and deserted I am waiting for you
even in uncertainty
but I will continue to wait
I would never think or ask, until when ???
you can not be replaced by anyone
as long as the night was still there
I will continue to waiting for you
I saw a picture of my face
hmmm ............
I pretty enough
should I be there ?
in sin ?
God has given me a beauty
is not to be exchanged for any thing
I have to take care
as a thanksgiving to God who has given me a beauty
I belong to God
forever I belong to God
Waiting for a miracle of God
is it the same with resignation ?
when I do not know anymore
where I have to stepping foot ?
tears is the last step for me prostrate in silence and calm
God . . . . . . tell me
where my foot should stepping ?
The Lord told me
that you are just trying
at this time
you like horse that is released and out of the cage
you are happy and free running
but one day
when the pastures have dried out
you will definitely come back to me
There is hard lump in my chest
I have to melt and stream it out
if not
it will be a hard lump of stone
making weight and shortness of my breath
love you is the beginning of a hard lump in my chest
forget or erase your face in my memory?
it's the same as my own memory wipe
Trying to make peace with myself
trying to make peace with God will
trying to get into God plan for my life
and try to accept what God has given in my life
entry in the domain of God is perfect
so I was seated in the throne of His kingdom
docile, obedient and loyal
Lord
at this time
I really want to hear Your voice saying to me
"Beti my daughter, you do not cry
I'm going to defend all of your case
if your case was a man by the name of Keith Forrest
he's not good for you
I do not give him to you
because I will give a man who the best for you
not a man who can not forgive
you belong to Me, you should not be polluted
I love you, I will keep you from the man who will make you hurt".
I wait with patience and love
but you choose other woman
already two years have passed
should I wait again ?
The danger if we take action ahead of God's plan,
is ... like King Saul
he acted on before the Lord and the Lord left him
whereas if only Saul understood a single word "Immanuel"
the draft of the Lord is like gears that spin just by pressing
one button ON then all goes according to plan author
Saul is afraid of the enemies
and the soldiers who began shouting impatient,
he pressed himself the ON button
when in command of the Lord is very clear
"waiting for Samuel to come"
Samuel who will press the ON button
then what are the consequences ?
God left Saul.
for the prayers have not been granted the Lord
wait , the body of existing engines, the engine is already there,
but there is still a small pen that has not precision,
is still being processed God,
wait soon God will press the ON button for you.
No difficult choices
that there is:
human difficult to release
Human fear of losing
and the human fear of shortages
there is no way of life branching
that there is :
human want something to happen according to his desire,
the human does not want to close the past
and human do not believe that God would give more
no choices is difficult and there is no way of life branched
Proverbs 4:25-26
Let thine eyes look right on, and let thine eyelids look straight before thee.
Ponder the path of thy feet, and let all thy ways be established.
The Lord said to me "do not lift your burden alone,
I'll be together with you to lift your burden,
I will not let you alone".
Thank you Lord, for Your help is very beautiful, Amen.
Psalms 8:3-4 When I consider thy heavens,
the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained;
What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?
If a small insect just had a feeling,
why there are so many people who do not have feelings?
where are human feelings gone?
they drive around looking for the feeling,
but there is a feeling in his heart
take a look at the struggle of an ant trying to carry
his food into the nest,
the male bees die after marrying the queen bee,
a deer that ran maximal to escape from the pursuit of the tiger,
all fighting
Let's fight according to the capacity of each to the last line.
leaving traces that make people want to continue to remember of us
in a smile and happy
Remember !
God always remembers us and visitest us
Tuesday, a woman from Queensland-Australia
wrote this article on her Facebook, but now has been wiped why ?
turn out ............ to be brave it is not easy
this she wrote
Brave...BRAVE?!!! NO!! Our service men and women fallen and still serving are brave.
Our police, firefighters and paramedics are brave.
The people in Nepal who survived an earthquake
and are now digging through rubble to find others are brave.
Our farmers in drought stricken Australia who are losing their jobs, homes, livestock,
crops and livelihoods all while trying to hold their families together are brave.
People battling cancer and other illnesses are brave.
These men...these scumbags are DRUG SMUGGLERS!!
They strapped 8kgs of heroin to their bodies and walked through an airport
knowing what the penalty is in that country for smuggling drugs.
It was an elaborate plot and they knew exactly what they were doing.
They broke the law and not just once,
they have already successfully smuggled drugs into this country in 2004.
So no I will not be attending any vigils,
no I will not be having a minutes silence and no I will not be praying for them
and no I do not feel sorry for them.
I find this insulting to those who truely deserve this title.
Unggah Seluler · Selasa pukul 14:59 ·
in truth
Psalms 116:15 Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints.
Have you ever looking for an address ?
then after you spin, you just find impasse ?
have you ever in your life, you find a dead end ?
no way out and do not know what you should do ?
dead end ???
Do you know ???
God addresses in impasse
when humans find impasse
suddenly he remembered that God is a dead end street
and then he knocked on the house of God and cried out
"Lord where is the way out !!! ???"
please help me !!!
then God came to him and said
"Son, let entrance, maybe you are hungry, you may be thirsty
I'll give you milk and honey that does not need you to buy
this My house for all people that labour and are heavy laden
this My house address
in impasse
There is little fireflies circling in the forest
with a small flame it illuminates the dark forest
there is a high beacon amid the sea
with its light it illuminates the dark ocean
be a small firefly or become high beacon
equally useful
Do not be arrogant when we become a beacon high
do not low self-esteem when we are just being small fireflies
because God promised the same reward
to people who worked on since morning
or who work from the middle day or just 1 hour
God promised the same reward
Let us
want to illuminate dark forest or a dark ocean ?
we come together to support each other
Dear Ke'i
last Sunday I pray for you and your children
I always pray for you,
hope you keep in your faith
even if you have been let go
on one day
you will definitely be back
because God loves you
God does not will let you away
Ke'i
our love will not recorded in history
but the people who read this blog know
that my love is strong, my love steadfast, my love sincere
only to you
just for you
Lord
give me a sincere heart
because only those whose hearts are sincere who can see You.
starting today
I want to learn to be somebody with a clear conscience
so that people can see that there is You in my life
Lord hug me so I'm not sad, do not worry, do not be disappointed.
strengthen me, to not waver
I want to walk with You
forever
Yesterday I saw a mother dies
she is small, thin, poor, old look although she was still the sixties
I think, when she was young
she gave birth to her children
taking care of her children and grow old
poor and sick
true as written by preachers in the Gospel
that in this world everything is useless
like chasing the wind
but there is always hope
because Jesus has preceded us in Heaven
2 Timothy 4:7-8
I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:
Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing.
Ke'i
if one day
I want to die and my spirit would not be separated
from my body before meeting with you
whether you want to come to hold my hand
to deliver me to heaven ?
would Ke'i ?
I miss you
it feels like to die
Broken ?
whether the human heart can be broken ?
the fracture was feeling
human heart remains intact
feelings ?
why human feelings could be broken? even destroyed, shattered ? destroyed by love, shattered by hatred, revenge, envy, resentment
real feelings can be controlled by common sense
if common sense ruled by love and faith in God then fled away
all feelings destroyed
and peace was feeling
I am not broken
I am not destroyed
I am not shattered
no ! no ! no !
+ For what you come ?
-- I want to go back to You
+ where have you gone ?
-- I am looking for happiness out side of you
but could not find
+ why do not you try to keep looking ?
-- no, I just wanted inside of you,
out there people just want to crush my body and my heart
but You keep my wings for not broken
such pledge your word that, a weak reed drooping not you break
and almost extinguished the flame axis do not You put out
I am fragile, my flame only small but in Your hand
and in your will
I trust you will make me be great
and my flame will be light
Me
a small butterfly
I want to fly high into the sky
and perched above the moon
then people on earth will look up
and they become an uproar
that the moon winged
I had a small boat
but I am not a paper boat
I'm not fragile and I will not be destroyed
because that makes me was the hand of God
the strong hand of God who supported me
hold me not to drown
take care of me for not destroyed
God ....................
I want to be spoiled Thee,
let the winds blowing hard
I'll hold your hand spoiled on
God, if many people do not want to admit you
come sit with me
we'll talk a lot of things
about people, about life, about love, about bitterness
we will sit together until tomorrow morning
when the morning sun warming the Earth
many people think
the earth and all its contents are not created
but there is everything there and occurs due process
God let sit with me
let those who do not believe in Thee
to live their lives, the way they are
very peaceful heart with You
hug me Lord
hug me in a sincere hug Your Love
Ke'i........ Ke'i ......... Ke'i ........
what are you doing ?
all up to you
You have 2 ladies
I'm waiting for you
she's waiting for you
but I'm clean
I'm going to keep me until the day of marriage
would be nice if this time you are with me
hear the song of the waves
see the fluffy white clouds
the wind rustle sound
look at the tree branches move
all that is on earth moving and breathin
let's dear come soon
I have a love that will never run out
just for you.
Good morning dear
this morning
I put red roses and white roses on your desk
it's our favorit color , symbolize our love
our love is between strength and sincerity
good morning dear
have a nice day
How are you Dear
I miss hearing your voice
I piled my longing in my inner
let my longing mounting
when all the power into the past, exploding, flowing and powerful.
That is my longing for you.
The rain came again
if the sky wish crying
who could resist ?
whether the cloud can expel it ?
whether the treetops can hold it ?
if the sky wanted to cry it's because of the heavy load
let the sky weep
let the earth be wet
let the world mourn
do not worry
there will be a rainbow after the rain
yes
there will be a rainbow after the rain
and sky will come back bright
Is this yours?
no, it's not mine, hatred is not mine
is this yours?
no, it is not mine, envy not mine
is this yours?
no, it is also not mine, arrogance, not mine
then .........?
which one is yours?
mine .........?
I keep away
in a pigeon's nest
because mine is longing
longing on the wing of a free
longing the wet earth,
longing for peace
longing for sunny skies
I sprinkle my longing to trace your feet
there
and right there
part of God that is still hidden
the most beautiful part
such as the wedding in Cana
best wine store at the end of the party
God has made the best wines
there
and must be there
the best thing for me was saved by the Lord
Lord may I ask it now ?
before my age old
please Lord
I Love You
Silent
why silent ?
longing
why longing ?
silent and longing is one
pain
why pain ?
love
why love ?
pain and love is one
if silent, longing, pain and love is one
why do we love ?
dreams
dream is happiness
and I ?
I chose a dream
a dream to meet you
when I was 70 years old and 77 years old you
and we ?
will be very happy
walking along the beach, hand in hand, watch the sunset
and then come home, cook together, eat together, sit together
and sleep in one blanket
( I'm still your little cat )
Limit ..........???
love is limitless, it will not turn into hate
will not grow old
love will never diminish
love will continue to grow, grow and grow
limit ............???
love is not limited by distance, time and condition
limit .............???
love is not limited by age
limit ............???
love has no limit
and ..........
I love you indefinitely and unconditionally
( love never melts and freezes )
To. Mr Tony Abbott
Do not despair, you have tried to be a good father
to all citizens of your country.
God knows what is best for your country.
God let James die but save Peter.
life is a gift from God and death is the secret of God,
part of God.
so pray and let the spirit of God working
if two people your citizen eventually death in Indonesia
it is part of God plan.
life is a gift and to die is gain
Thank you, Beti Merwati
from Indonesia
The eagle's wings had been broken
now the dashing eagle has slumped
only on your wings, your valor ?
flap, flapped continue your wings
I want to see you fly high
my eagle fly ! fly !! fly !!!
you should bring my longing
because my longs had pile up in my chest, tight
immediately got my eagle
immediately take my longing.
Do not throw away my longing in the dark
in this world
you will not find
longs as my longing
my longing
there at the top of the tree the highest mountain
anyone could not have my longing
because my longing only for you.
Some wrong decision
whether the error in decision making is also Your plan?
I do not understand
there are wise people
and there are people who can not wise
oh, now I understand.
if people are not wise make a decision and there are asked to You
and then You put the wise Spirit
into the hearts of people who are not wise
but me ???
have already made mistakes in taking decisions
and most wrong decisions in my life is .... ....
fall in love with you.
Dear my daughter Beti
Before I formed you in your mother's womb
I have known you, and have planned your whole life
do not worry and do not be afraid
I am always there for you
pray continuously, continuously talk to Me
I'm glad to hear your voice
I'm soon going to help, and grant your prayer request.
Love You
Jesus
God ....... hold my hand
let's walk together
certainly very beautiful
we are going through a beautiful garden with flowers that bloom
from long ago, my love is Thou
from long ago who loved me, is Thou.
God ....... air is cool
add to the beauty of our relationship
God ....... let's continue to hold hands
I do not want the others
I just want to be with you
peaceful and beautiful.
Do not tell anyone about my heart
do not tell anyone about your heart
it's our secret
that someday
we will meet
in a place
which only we who know
do not tell anyone about our appointment.
Longing in my chest thundering
like waves in the ocean
like the rustle of wind in the top of the mountain
Who can stop it ?
voices that urge my chest
making my chest ballooned
who can stop it ?
I can not stop it
though in the long scream
always and always
only to Lord, I ask
Lord......................
release me
from
my longing to Ke'i
Part 1
There is leaf
fall on the ground
then be dried, crushed....trampled people
There is leaf
fall in the river
flowing down to the sea and keep it fresh
I want to get away from you
but can not
let me crushed
trampled your feet
Part 2
There is leaf
fall on the ground
I want to get away from you
but can not
I asked the wind to fly me to the river flows into the sea
and so I remain green and useful for many people
And try to forget you
Today, I hid my longing
Today, I kept my longing
Today I held my longing
because tomorrow
my longing would be flowering
Moon told me
that (he) is often seen you waking from sleep at 2:30 am
and I remember some email you were sent at 2:30 am.
The morning sun told me that (he) often saw you stand
looking out from the window of your house,
and I remember, you ever told me
during the morning
sometimes you feel afraid of what will happen
because life is full of mystery.
I was there with you when you wake up at 2:30 am
I was there with you when you stand staring out of the window
of your house
I left my fragrance from every corner of your house
I left my spirit throughout the chamber your heart
If you're sad and afraid, to convey to the moon and the sun
and the moon and the sun will tell me
and I will soon praying for you
I sue
sue to whom ?
to which creative love
to which creative a feeling
to which creative the grief
who are you ?
you can not sue
I had the grief
I had the lost
but you can not force to win
but this love
I had to have him
love does not must to have
but I want to smell his body everyday
you are stupid
I did not give him to you
because you are not going to be happy
you know ?
when I read what his girlfriend is written on Facebook
I laugh
she wrote " no day is not happy with him "
why I laugh ?
because they only meet once a month
or three months
if she had settled there
one day she will realize and was surprised
that it turned out she lived in a forest
it is difficult to go to the mall
it is difficult to find delicious food
she was just at home and at home
she will be bored
I love him
no problem for me to stay anywhere
return Ke'i to me
Okay, I will return him to you
but not now
because I have a wonderful plan for you
who are you ?
I am who created love and feelings
is it true ?
yes and I never broken a promise
I am not going to
congratulate Valentine's Day to you
because of
my love and affection to you every second
and I am calling your name
more than a hundred times a day
if you feel the wind blowing into your body
that is me
I always be with you
I wrapped my love in hope
I closed densely with the fingers of faith
I will survive
from scraping the time
from erosion era
from living pressures
I will always hold it in my skinny arms
I will continue to keep my love remains intact
for you
I ran my longing up the mountain
I hold it from the wind
I keep it out of the rain
protection against wild birds
I hug my longing in the cold
I shiver, I'm alone
you have fun with your girlfriend
but I'm not disappointed
that's love
like a candle
give , until it was melted, crushed
without remembered.
Good morning Ke'i , it's me
you will never know what love is ? and like what ?
love is strong
as the strong pressure of water that falls from the top of a very high waterfall
powerful press, falling and flowing
continue to flow until to the ends of the earth
love strong pressing
kept flowing and will continue to flow
until your heart is not strong anymore
hold strong my love
hold swift my love
An expectation hanging in the sky blue
with a smile and cry
I look at it every day
in storms and cyclones
the hope was still hanging in the sky
in the smiles and tears I see the blue sky
wait for me !!!
I will soon come !!!
wait for me Darwin !!!
in storms and cyclones
I will come
Lord ............lift me higher
Lord ........... take me flying higher
the place that I do not know
the place that I had never seen
a place that only You know
the place was called the future
Lord.............wherever you put me, lifting me higher
wherever you take me away, take me to fly higher
I believe Lord, that you love me
and would not let me lose
lift me more higher, Lord
take me fly higher
with you I believe
Lord ...........lift me higher
Ke'i, you hear the sound of birds chirping?
you hear the sound of leaves rustling in the wind?
behold a white cloud moving,
they shy away from the wind or follow where the wind take it away?
Ke'i if ever you think ?
birds chirping the sky above you would fly sky above me
wind that blew your body will move looking for my body
clouds the heavens above you will be above the heavens me
we are near, we are not far away
Ke'i give me your hand to greet me,
I soon came,
through the sound of birds
through the wind
through the clouds
through the voice of your heart
I came Ke'i
I'm always there for you
Good morning my love
take your breath as long as you can
fresh air is often forgotten that it was a gift from God and free
this morning, like the previous days ,
I really miss you
my fingers could no longer touch the strings of your heart
you sped away leaving me
back to me my love
my love has never diminished
back to me my love
my love full round remains for you
I am waiting for you without time limit
My life full with sheets of blue and purple
slightly pink sheets when I'm with you
pink sheet that make my heart soar
full hope and my excitement got up
Now ........ ....... .......
the pink sheets have covered the gray clouds
I pray God breathed immediately over me
so this gray clouds soon passed
and the sky shines in my heart again
God
please blow your breath over me
I want to see again
sheets pink colour in my heart
Broken heart will only make me be on the brink
broken heart will only make my steps weight
broken heart will only make my mind a blank
broken heart will only make me sore and swollen eyes
I had to keep myself from a broken heart
even though it has been mastered myself feeling
rise or destroyed?
and I chose to rise
even though very heavy, painful
and jealousy are always visible
I have to hold the promise of God
that God will make everything beautiful in its time
I have to believe that at the threshold of this limit
you were there, and you will embrace me , love me
and we will be happy in eternal love
always and forever.
Thanks Lord for all good You
sometimes I feel, you do not love me
and sometimes I feel that you do not answer my prayers
whereas you have been very much, could not be counted
never stopped, And will not be requited
forgive me, O Lord
forgive me
this night , in reflection
I really feel great your love to me
and
I bowed in shame and conscious
See you in the morning
with clear brown eyes
I closed my eyes for a moment
all the feelings flowing in my heart
happy, love, pity and fear of losing you
all become one in my heart
I love you in every movement of your body
I love you in every milli your body
now I believe, that love has a powerful force
would not withered by time
not to be destroyed by the storm
and will not be lost by destiny
my love to you like the waves of the sea
that will never stop
I love you at all times in my life
I saw a man fishing
he is tall, athletics with sunglasses
he look very handsome
I look from a far
when he threw the hook into the sea
I heard a voice in his heart
I'm male
I threw thousand hopes and hopes
to get million excitement
I'm male
I throw away my past and
I'll get a better future
I'm male
I will not be hurt by any one
and by any what also
I'm male
I threw the hook in to the sea
when I feel my hook heavy
I shouted...... I get it ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
I see you the joy on your face
I actually want to be close to you
hugging your waist
and put my head on your shoulder burly
Shining my sun
my heart keep with your warm the brightness
accompany me in my quiet
we in the same, itself
when I look at you with sad
you will see me with empathy
you have said, want to going down to sit with me
but if you go down, the earth would ended
and I do not want to selfish, and .......
I say to you " let me alone".
My longing to sunflowers
is my longing to you
to the blossoming flowers
along the way we've been through together
to warm bright sun coming through a gap leaves
there is hope, hope for all people who have hope
release your longing here
remove your restless here
my longing to Palmerstone
is my longing to you
Clear in my eyes swell
this Saturday
you usually say goodbye to go fishing or go to the forest
but already this year I did not receive a message from you
that you would go to the forest or to the sea
clear in my eyes flowed down my cheeks, warm
and I felt that feeling of pain is part of the beauty of love
Lord ........
thanks for the fresh air this morning
I breathe it in deeply
Lord ........
I feel a beauty, though I feel the love that pain
but I have you
a personal hands are always open to people who are sick, discouraged,
and the people whose lives in hatred,
You restore and revise any broken hearts
Thanks Lord I trust in You
I will not be disappointed
Thank you Lord
for thou hast a speck of seed planted in my heart
seeds that will grow big, break through the impossibility
which will penetrate gap,long distance and limitations
Lord..... continue to grow the seed in my heart
firmly entrenched and fruitful
and I share my servants to people who do not know You
Sustain me Lord
by Your strength and power
not to falter and fall
Fasting is to glorify God
to thank Him for all the good that God has given in our lives
at once surrender ourselves to His will
subject to and comply with all the great and wonderful plan
and God will look into our hearts and all our need and diseases, problems and burdens of our lives
His heart is soft and his words of power will soon be moved to help us
God ...........
on this day in prostration of gratitude, hope and faith
I prayed and fasted
You are my inspiration
I do not need to be meditate in the mountains
I do not need to calm down on the beach
no need to hear the sound of water splashing
no need to look into the blue sky
or staring away into the waterfall
quite simply remembering you
yes, quite simply remembering you
my inspiration flowing, broke through, out of my mind and my heart
yes you are my inspiration
inspiration will never run out
Rain down since I was in the plane
from the hotel room window I see, it's still raining
my face wet with tears, if I'm going to find you,my love ?
I saw people walking looked up
my instinct says, there is a rainbow! ! !
I remember Lord promise to Noah
that Lord would not punish the earth with a flood again
then Lord put the bow in the sky
so that when the Lord saw His bow in the sky
then Lord remembered His promise
outside the hotel I felt the cold air attack me
but I'm happy, I stretched to two hands, lifted my face to the sky
and shout "hey ! there is a rainbow on the sky Darwin"
and I cried with a loud voice
remove all the tightness in my chest, not caring people see
I heard a soft voice
"look into your heart, I had to paint a rainbow in your heart"
I was surprised, it was the voice of Lord
I have not been hearing that voice, long
I only hear the sound of me, forgive me Lord
because of my love for him
I almost forget Thee
He opened his WhatsApp for 5 day special for me
and I write all my longing for him
vengeful and rigid man, finally
his heart melted as well
in a brief conversation, you say, you also miss me
but you were too quick to act and make decisions
for intimate with another woman
and let our love hanging over the sky Darwin
The man stood
he is tall, handsome
he brought a glass of water
A woman sitting near his legs
she said "sir give me a little water you take, I'm thirsty
I just make do my love journey for 6 months
I wrote a long letter, now I'm thirsty Sir
give me a bit of your water".
The man knew the woman was his girlfriend
but he tries not to know her, he walked away and he carried on drinking until the end
That the women was not discouraged,
she said "sir if the water is not there anymore
give me a drink of your urine
and while he was peeing, she drank it
and then ......
The man was gone, without notice, without words, without mercy
Whether the man named Ke'i ?
I scream "NO ! Ke'i was not, it was just a shadow
Ke'i is still here near me
he was still holding a glass of water ".
